how did you find me ?

  Woke up pretty early; the return to caffeine is making me unable to sleep early and unable to sleep in. Need to start cutting back again. Half a coffee per day? I seem pretty sensitive to it, or the half-life of it takes forever to get outside of me. In any case, purring kittens as usual. Flew down to catch the train to work. Messed around with music; been thinking about getting back into making a long playlist again. Just for the pleasure of it, you know?

  Got to leave work early. Went swimming, discovered the very thin pool noodle is a good medium between unable to float and too easy to float. Felt weak in my arms and legs again; I probably need to eat more protein. I'd like to get back to working out regularly again. One day at a time. I'll get there. Wanted to see the C-130 flying over the Hudson today. Train delays didn't favor me, and I was feeling rather noodly post-swim, so I went home from Columbia instead.

  Got a notice from NYC that Legionnaire's disease is spreading in central Harlem, including my postal code. Learned all about it and discussed it with Christina. It's rather straightforward but still interesting. I hope my HVAC coworkers are taking care in Harlem. Main vectors are poorly maintained cooling towers, it seems, along with all other sources of lukewarm aerosoled/steamed water. It's a good thing to look into when thinking about living in a new building, I feel. It also shows yet again how poor management can contribute to environmental health risks. After all, a minimally maintained tower and plumbing system would not introduce this organism in significant numbers to vulnerable populations.

  Spoke to Bill about my upcoming trip to Mystic, CT, and my plans to pursue driving classes in the fall. Looking forward, though, I still feel the anxiety tingle in my fingers at the idea of being behind the wheel. I am easily distracted by life, after all. I wouldn't want to injure someone as I tend to have extreme sideblinders when focusing hard. It's something I'm still working on improving.

  Jammed out to music with the LC women. Tunesday is the best day. Theme was animals this time; ended up playing a lot of bangers. Had a blast! Life is fun. I don't understand society, most days. The OS people run is disintegrating, under all the navel-gazing and lack of action. Trauma, is. Accept what you cannot change (others, the past) and focus on what you can (yourself, the future). Remove all tolerance of abusers, bigots, etc. instead of trying to affect them. Just walk away and uphold that right to peace out as much as possible. You can see how effective this is in the general anger of modern men.