how did you find me ?

  Usual morning routine. Floated to work. Mostly messed around. Was excited to get off and shuffle to my after-work activities.

  Went home for a quick bite then popped out to pick up my secondhand bike. The woman was a sweetheart! She's from Argentina and heading back, so she gave me a cellphone stand and a lock, along with a basket clamp if I decide to attach a basket. Even has a spot for a water bottle. She was my height, so the bike is already setup. Originally I was going to resell it after this weekend, but no way. I'm keeping that beautiful baby and using it in Central Park. I had the urge to use it on the spot, but I need to restabilize my eating first before I do so. I also need to do recon on the use of helmets here.

  In any case, hauled the bike upstairs and had a good talk with my neighbor Michaela. We agreed to hang out the Sunday after this one. Looking forward! She's lovely. I'd like to get to know her better. Just have to be careful. She met the kittens. I appreciated she gave me the option to say 'no' if needed. Still working on that. Cuddled with the cats after. Managed to clip the claws on Mirisha and she purred the whole time!! A success. I also got two on Lorisha, which is progress. Mirisha even smooshed a little against me after. I'm so happy they seem comfortable with me.

  After, I checked in with Roman to see how he was doing, and in the middle of that my KPH40s showed up! They sound so amazing and look so cool. My 90s heart is content. All I need is a knockoff walkman and I'm complete bahaha. I'm pleased with the 3d lens Yaxi earpads, too. Definitely worth the money. I think I'll get a 3d printed Hundo headband to complete the rig. All this is making me want to get more into rollerblading and basketball; must be the Y2K nostalgia.

  Still having some trouble sleeping, but have cut back coffee to half a cup. It's probably that I'm short on food. Need to address asap. Will do so tomorrow. It does not help my fridge is small, but still, that is a limited excuse. It is mostly a mix of laziness and an anxiety around doing caretaking tasks at home. I can do this though!! I just wish I could find food I consistently enjoy eating. But I know, that is the biggest main symptom of stress and avoidance for me. So, the only thing to do is to confront it.

  Working through environmental triggers is difficult. I resent that the shift to fall is contaminated, too, now, because of his bullshit, but the only way out is through. I can do this.