how did you find me ?

  Rushed home for supper. Kittens were clingy; resolved to spend some time with them on Sunday morning. Left to meet up with Ana for the Harlem Nights comedy show. Enjoyed the soul music there while waiting for her to arrive. She told me later this is a weekly event, though better on Monday nights, so I'll have to come again. There were six comedians, and to be honest, most were godawful, but I enjoyed the drinks and Ana's company, and just laughing with everyone, and so, the material didn't really matter, and to be fair, the badness was half the fun of it.

  On the way over to the bar, I had seen there was a concert on 125th, so, Ana and I wandered back that way after the joke show wrapped up. Blew our ears out a bit by getting so close to the stage, and discovered a guy selling poetry books. Opened one to a ridiculous line, and immediately lost our shit over it given how drunk we were. Bought it for $2.45; even the precision of the pricing entertains me. Fond of the book now, will have to read it at some point, though I've never been one for poetry.

  Stopped by some souped-up cars, a lemon-yellow oldie and a cherry-red boat convertible. Ana immediately started chattingsex. Does it ever end? Evaded the questions. I'm grateful, to not be obligated. Really, it's a gift to be born in this time and place, where I can say no somewhat safely. As an aside, Ana shows such dark triad traits, that, I will never get personal with her. Isn't it great that I recognize the signs now? My ex had a lot of the same ones, too. I should have kept my distance, but, I came to New York to learn a lesson, and it's nice to see that I have learned it.

  Ana escorted me home and I flopped over with the kittens. Honestly, it's amazing all the things I can get up to in a day, and I am determined to not waste one single day of my life if I may permit myself so. There truly are no words for how grateful I am to have been born as myself, and not anyone else. If I could do it again, I would still choose, me, as the woman I am. I'm also glad I have this little corner of the internet to type in, too. Learning HTML all those years ago was definitely worth it. Honestly, there's not a skill I've not enjoyed learning, acquiring, improving. I hope I can always continue to grow as person for the rest of my arbitrary life in this chaos soup; life is what I make of it, and I'm seriously so glad that I get to spend this time here, with me, always, and with others, as permitted.